Bewildered Nation

    A Bewildered Nation

BR Chitwood

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As a bewildered child I could not have known the word, ‘Confusion’, nor any word that defined my state of being. ‘Fear’ was there along with the body tremors and tears, the displacement, the whirl of movement, the sharp and ugly words uttered in the anger of the times, bodies attacking bodies in the fading flicker of kerosene lamps. No, not a constant force in those early years of my youth and yearning to be in the light. It seemed always dark and shadowy, always awaiting the clouds to gather for another storm.

Along with bewilderment and fear there was within my genetic make-up a tendency toward cowardice – and it was easily defined by my eyes, the quivering of my body, and my pitiful voice of surrender…an easy, choice-prey for the bully building his noisy audience of smiling ‘tag-along’ buddies…

After a few shoves put me on the ground, a few sympathetic voices from the gathered crowd would come: “Let him up! He doesn’t want to fight you…recess is over.”

My emotions, my mind, were in a frenzy as I took my seat at the small desk in the back of ‘home room’, and, in that quiet contemplative place, the teacher’s voice a soft and barely audible hum in my ears, my mind did to me what the bully had intended to do – ‘beat me up’… Why was I built this way? Why did my body reject me in those danger moments, sending the waves of doom through the brain and paralyzing any impulse to react to a bully not a lot bigger than I?

There was no corner to hide in. I would be forever known as a sissified little boy, afraid to defend himself. In those moments, I loathed my life and the awkward embarrassment I brought to it.

Friendships that came helped me gain some degree of empowerment. High School football was a major source of encouragement. The body contact nature of the sport awakened a part of my small degree of gridiron talent. Not that I would ever be a bully or close friend with a bully but their bloated egos no longer lingered long in my mind. Our genetic networks carry all of our truths and secrets – good and bad.

Our lives are filled with all the emotions, our loves, our hatreds, our industry, our desires, our capacity for or ‘lack of’ positive energy, and a generous supply of kindness. It is my belief that few of us are Saintly Gifted, empowered by some spiritual gifts of goodness that keep us unselfish and mercifully steadfast in solving crippling and societal issues.,

How we bring our inheritance of virtuous and unvirtuous qualities to adulthood, the pros and cons of our beliefs, determine the good and evil forces that bond and move us toward the good and evil sides… Rather superfluous, to be sure, but so, too, are birth and death.

From an historical perspective we must be coming close to some final determination about our relatively short stint as a democracy…do we stay Free and Sovereign as our Constitutional patriots envisioned, endowed by a loving God to defy negative voices that would destroy all for which our historical documents pledged for us?

With all the universal diversity, the spread of our rapidly growing knowledge, the gaps in personal intelligence, the riots, political parties that appear to seek power and give glib analyses to match their Masters’ dictates. Can America and the World survive if an elite few dictate how we must live?

It is my opinion that the 2021 Presidential election was farcical and without precedent in the annals of history, notwithstanding the awful World Pandemic and some major Cities’ and States’ manipulations.

Our Southern border, once secured, is now open and allowing hundreds of thousands of immigrants into the United States, many of whom are bused and sent all over our country, good people along with child molesters and killers.

I’m just one voice.

Perhaps you won’t like what I’m writing.

Perhaps I’ll be censored.

There are times when a weak voice like mine speaks and few will read what I have written, but I felt the need to put down these thoughts. I love my country and pray we can solve our issues.

B R Chitwood – July 5, 2021

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Pumpkin Pie and Tomorrow’s Promise

“Pumpkin Pie and Hope for Tomorrow!”

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Pumpkin Pie and Tomorrow’s Promise!

By BR Chitwood

Most of us are always in the moment of a calendar’s celebration…

This year, we citizens of the world who still believe in tradition and well-wishing will put on that in the moment face over a family Thanksgiving dinner, and an invisible cloud of uncertainty above our place settings. Our smiles and the anecdotes displayed will have an invisible cautionary reality of new hope, promise, and doubts which is exactly as it should be.

 We sit at our Thanksgiving family tables and give thanks to our Deity, if that is our wont, for seeing us through another year of death and living, of Medical and government officials seeking control over a menacing virus that is killing millions, of another presidential election fraught with fraud, duplicate ballots, chicanery far and beyond any we have seen in our lifetimes, political parties going in different directions, with some of its members sheltered by the riches of the ‘Swamp Dwellers’.

It is not unlikely that the conversation will mildly and slowly evolve to these dreadful subjects, and most families will handle the pros and cons of these monologues and dialogues with tacit awareness that all at the table will not have agreement on the issues.

After the turkey and pumpkin pie, family members, will play their games of Trivia, Charades, and/or, weather permitting, horseshoes, pitch and catch in the backyard…

Soon, the grandparents, uncles, aunts, brothers, sisters go home with family love in their hearts but a ‘never before’ felt deep uncertainty as to how their country will turn out once the virus has been controlled through vaccines and the political wars ahead…another Civil War, undocumented immigrants coming in thousands across our borders, a serious and alarming tilt toward Socialism where citizens serve their ‘big tech’, ‘global conglomerate,’ ‘big money’ power brokers?

They will likely be very different Thanksgiving dinners from those of our recent pasts, people defying the political leaders’ mandates regarding attendance numbers, perhaps more arguments than in the past, more pent-up aggression and anxiety.

Then, who knows?

We could be turning corners dictated by a history already predicted and about to be recorded, a history that is actually a new edition of We the People and God Bless America.

Who knows?

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By BR Chitwood

https://www.brchitwood.com

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